Yikes - before I even get going here I am going to light some energy clearing insense! Be right back...
Okay.. The crows have come together with quite a warning this morning as well as an opportunity to make a transformative shift, one that will help us avoid the tragic energy of the Ten of Swords.
The crow of the Eight of Cups contemplates leaving the life it has always known behind, and all that it has accumulated with the hope of a better life.
Representing the past, the Eight of Cups denotes walking away from a situation that you know longer wanted to deal with, without finding closure. It is about escaping instead of dealing or coming to acceptance. It was easier to simply pack your bags and move on - but we can't escape ourselves and like a stowaway tarantula, these emotions will surface and can create chaos.
Perhaps it was a less than perfect home life you ran away from, or relationship that you walked away from without warning or explanation. Although you may have moved on and into a new life, the old one still has its hooks in you - even if they are buried deep.
At the heart of the matter is the Five of Pentacles and the two different sets of crows. There is the group that is comfortable and secure in the tree and there is the group that is battling the storm without shelter on the ground. Because the crows on the ground are so focused on getting through the storm, they can't see the opportunity for safety right above them.
The Five of Pentacles brings the message that you are missing an opportunity because you are not willing or capable of seeing it for what it is.
Because it follows the Eight of Cups, this may point to a belief about your self or a fear that centers around avoidance. To move forward and see the opportunity you may need to come to terms with the scars. Owning our own story takes being brave and even being vulnerable with ourselves - because we are often our own worst critic.
Our choices, how we see ourselves, how our ego inflates or shrinks can be traced back to our youth - to those years when we allowed others to define us and although as we got older and tried to carve out our own identity - there can still be misguided beliefs in regards to what we can and can't do. A belief may have been planted long before we even had a chance to truly understand its power. These words are like curses. As a kid, I remember my mother telling my sister she wasn't coordinated enough to take ballet and because of that my sister often felt self-conscious about her movements and making sure she wasn't being "clumsy" - to this day (over 30 years!) my sister still holds feelings about that one incident.
Take the time to go into your mind and explore - what beliefs are you holding on to? What part of your story have you tried to hide out of fear and shame?
The crow lays dead, impaled by ten swords. The only solace that can be taken at this moment is that its suffering is over - and it is now free to go to a better world.
The Ten of Swords in the future position denotes a very sad ending, one that will move you from one place to another - however, the transition will be painful. With the previous cards - this can manifest in a couple of different ways.
The first scenario is that your inability to see the opportunity for a better path forward kept you in place - and because of this - you will hit a period of your life that feels like rock bottom. The positive to this is that we grow through struggle and this experience will make you stronger.
The second scenario is one where you lean into the painful experiences of the past, own your history - this doesn't mean allowing it to define what you are capable of today. Travel back in time to when you were a child - and give that kid a hug. It takes courage to love ourselves enough to accept who we are as a whole - including the parts where shame lives.
“The past is never dead. It's not even past.”
― William Faulkner, Requiem for a Nun